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Usually, when we talk about suicide we say those four magic words: "just ask for help". But Honor Eastly knows it's not that simple. She's been there and back, and now has years of phone recordings and diary entries, from the inside.
These recordings form the basis of this podcast, No Feeling Is Final.
This is a show for anyone who's ever wondered if life is worth living. And for anyone trying to better understand their friend, partner or kid, who's wrestled with these feelings themselves. At times heartbreaking, and desperate — but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive
Just a heads up, this show touches on some heavy lifting feelings territory — including what's it's like to feel so hopeless that you want to die. It's not graphic — it's not that kind of show. But there is some swearing.
Also — this is a memoir show. It's about Honor's experience trying to figure out some big stuff. So of course, it's only one person's story.
This six-part experimental memoir, No Feeling Is Final was named one of the best podcasts of 2018 by The Atlantic, TIME, and The Financial Times. It also won the coveted Director's Choice Award at the Third Coast International Audio Festival 2019. In 2025, Apple named it a 'Series Essential', recognising it as one of the greatest achievements in podcasting.
Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.
How's Honor doing these days?
For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-update
Find out more about the Big Feels Club here https://www.bigfeels.club/about-big-feels-club
Need support?
If you're feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.
In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14
or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.
For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.
Credits
Honor Eastly, Writer and Presenter
Joel Werner, Executive Producer
Alice Moldovan, Producer
Graham Panther, Co-Writer
Russell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
These recordings form the basis of this podcast, No Feeling Is Final.
This is a show for anyone who's ever wondered if life is worth living. And for anyone trying to better understand their friend, partner or kid, who's wrestled with these feelings themselves. At times heartbreaking, and desperate — but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive
Just a heads up, this show touches on some heavy lifting feelings territory — including what's it's like to feel so hopeless that you want to die. It's not graphic — it's not that kind of show. But there is some swearing.
Also — this is a memoir show. It's about Honor's experience trying to figure out some big stuff. So of course, it's only one person's story.
This six-part experimental memoir, No Feeling Is Final was named one of the best podcasts of 2018 by The Atlantic, TIME, and The Financial Times. It also won the coveted Director's Choice Award at the Third Coast International Audio Festival 2019. In 2025, Apple named it a 'Series Essential', recognising it as one of the greatest achievements in podcasting.
Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.
How's Honor doing these days?
For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-update
Find out more about the Big Feels Club here https://www.bigfeels.club/about-big-feels-club
Need support?
If you're feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.
In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14
or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.
For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.
Credits
Honor Eastly, Writer and Presenter
Joel Werner, Executive Producer
Alice Moldovan, Producer
Graham Panther, Co-Writer
Russell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
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No Feeling Is Final is a show for anyone who’s ever wondered if life is worth living. And for anyone trying to better understand their friend, partner, or kid who’s wrestled with these feelings themselves. At times heartbreaking, and desperate — but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive.WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language.And if you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody:Crisis linesLifeline on 13 11 14Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36Headspace on 1800 650 890QLife on 1800 184 527Chat servicesElefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/Sane: https://www.sane.org/eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspxFurther informationWhere do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196
No Feeling Is Final is a show for anyone who’s ever wondered if life is worth living. And for anyone trying to better understand their friend, partner, or kid who’s wrestled with these feelings themselves. At times heartbreaking, and desperate — but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive.Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.How’s Honor doing these days? For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-updateFind out more about the Big Feels Club here.Need support?If you’re feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14 or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.CreditsHonor Eastly, Writer and PresenterJoel Werner, Executive ProducerAlice Moldovan, ProducerGraham Panther, Co-WriterRussell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
2"Mum says my boyfriend is a keeper. Right now, for practical reasons, he is in fact the keeper of all the medications I am currently taking."We all have that voice in our head. The one that is brutally honest. It's a good thing, right? Except when it really isn't.Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.How's Honor doing these days? For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-updateFind out more about the Big Feels Club here.Need support? If you're feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14 or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.CreditsHonor Eastly, Writer and PresenterJoel Werner, Executive ProducerAlice Moldovan, ProducerGraham Panther, Co-WriterRussell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
"Hunting for a psychiatrist is a lot like hunting for 'The One'. Only much more expensive and with a tiny dating pool."A desert. A gameshow. A desperate attempt. Miles of red tape. And finally, an answer?Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.How’s Honor doing these days? For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-updateFind out more about the Big Feels Club here.Need support?If you’re feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14 or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.CreditsHonor Eastly, Writer and PresenterJoel Werner, Executive ProducerAlice Moldovan, ProducerGraham Panther, Co-WriterRussell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
"I keep trying to say the most honest thing, and it keeps changing."There are no good snack options in psych hospital. And it's really hard to not look crazy.Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.How's Honor doing these days?For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-updateFind out more about the Big Feels Club here.Need support?If you're feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.CreditsHonor Eastly, Writer and PresenterJoel Werner, Executive ProducerAlice Moldovan, ProducerGraham Panther, Co-WriterRussell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
"We have 60,000 thoughts each day. I will try to track every single one of them."On the other side of psychiatric hospital there’s less of things.In this episode Honor speaks about her experience with psychiatric drugs. We'd like to emphasise that this is just that – her experience. If you’d like to learn more about the science of these medications, these two articles are a good place to start;More data, more answers: picking the optimal antidepressant (The Lancet)Comparative efficacy and acceptability of 21 antidepressant drugs for the acute treatment of adults with major depressive disorder: a systematic review and network meta-analysis (The Lancet)Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.How’s Honor doing these days? For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-updateFind out more about the Big Feels Club here.Need support?If you’re feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14 or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.CreditsHonor Eastly, Writer and PresenterJoel Werner, Executive ProducerAlice Moldovan, ProducerGraham Panther, Co-WriterRussell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
“So, where do you go when you feel like a masticated maraschino cherry?”How to collect your tears, the existential angst of the shampoo aisle, and the boy returns.Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.How’s Honor doing these days?For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-updateFind out more about the Big Feels Club here.Need support?If you’re feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14 or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.CreditsHonor Eastly, Writer and PresenterJoel Werner, Executive ProducerAlice Moldovan, ProducerGraham Panther, Co-WriterRussell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
"Endings. Endings. Everywhere."Graham doesn’t think I am broken, but I still suspect I might be.Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.How’s Honor doing these days?For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-updateFind out more about the Big Feels Club here.Need support?If you’re feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14 or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.CreditsHonor Eastly, Writer and PresenterJoel Werner, Executive ProducerAlice Moldovan, ProducerGraham Panther, Co-WriterRussell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
Honor chats with the totem for her sabbaticals to Doom Town, Eddie Perfect.Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics.How’s Honor doing these days?For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-updateFind out more about the Big Feels Club here.Need support?If you’re feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available.In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14 or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467.For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com.CreditsHonor Eastly, Writer and PresenterJoel Werner, Executive ProducerAlice Moldovan, ProducerGraham Panther, Co-WriterRussell Stapleton, Sound Engineer
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The song at the end (starting around 20:26) is so lovely, haunting, melodic, heartfelt, desperate, beautiful, and perfect. It's remained in my mind all day and I'm pretty sure it'll live there long after the details of this wonderful podcast have faded.
This is so heavy. And accurate. And hard. And true. And relatable. And me. I hate how it made me feel even tho I also appreciate the feelings it forced me to confront.
is there a way to sign up for updates of you do more episodes?
I cannot express enough just how much I love this podcast! ❤️ Thank you, Honor & Graham, & everyone behind the scenes who made this possible.
This is absolutely heartwarming with all of the feels - big and small. Thank you so much Honor. You jumped into my brain and explained so much of my life for me (very cathartic) and for others (super helpful!) Thank you so so so so so so much 💜
Thank you for this podcast. This is the most relatable memoir I've ever known. The love between the host and her partner is supportive and beautiful. This story gives me hope.
This is absolutely fantastic. One of those podcasts that I wish I had made it because it's so good. Solidarity, and a more objective tool to share my experience with those around me.
Love this! A real persons experience of navigating life and the mental health system as a feelermof big feelings.